One of the things that has always troubled me about "living abroad" is the fact that my friends and family back home don't really know what I'm doing "out here". I try to tell them, and they often ask, but there is only so much that can be said via phone calls, emails, and sporadic visits back to the States.
I moved to Taipei because I wanted to see what else was out there and to experience all that I can before settling down. I hardly intended to distance myself from those I care for most, but my plans to stay here for one or two years have turned into six years and counting, and the separation between us has taken its toll. Having this personal website changes everything. I'm just surprised I hadn't thought of it before.
It is not unusual to hear those back home say, "When are you going to move back and get a REAL job?", or, "What are you running away from?", when in actuality, a great number of international professionals, myself included, are doing things in their respective capacities out here in Greater China that most people will never experience in a lifetime. Through this website, I hope to bring their efforts to light.
Further, with this website, I am giving my children, and their children, a gift from me. A story of who I really am and how I came to be. My grandmother, who is 79 at the time of this writing, has lead a life that runs parallel to many a story in The Joy Luck Club. Yet though I try to visit her as often as I can, there is a big part of her past that I will never know. I would like for my "story" to be more permanent.
I don't have any professional training, and what would I write about? To be a professional writer, I'd have to start from scratch. I'd have to take a low-paying editing position, freelance for newspapers, maybe get a job as a journalist, and work my butt off for years in HOPES of building a name for myself. Or maybe, I can start my own website. At the very least, I can use it to practice my writing skills, and who knows what doors may open for me as a "writer". It's worth a shot.
It always humors me when people ask WHY Gus and I work so hard on the original .ORG site, since that, in and of itself, is not a for-profit endeavor. You're looking at one of the reasons. Had I never got involved with ORIENTED, I probably wouldn't have known how to create this website. You wouldn't be here reading what I've written, and I wouldn't have known just how much I enjoy writing. These are just minor points compared to all the things we've gained, both personally and professionally, from our efforts.
In creating .ORG, I have had and am still having fun. Tons of it, due in no small part to Gus. He brings a dimension of optimism, enthusiasm, and humor into our work that makes me want to check the site just to see what else is up. I am lucky to have him as my site partner, and I want to use this personal website to capture all the fun that we have and all the things we learn, regardless of what may come.
PLUS. How awesome is it that I will have tracked its life cycle from the beginning to the end, whatever that may be? Maybe I'll even be able to write a book about it later on, entitled either "The Rise and Rise of ORIENTED", or "The Rise and Fall of ORIENTED". Am I not profound?
Eventually I will be moving back to the States which is where I call my "home". I can either leave Taipei with a one-page resume, or I can leave with THIS. All that I have done and can do is reflected on this website. Gee... which should I choose?
My Mark in History
Someone once said that our purpose in life is to leave it with a positive and permanent contribution that lasts beyond us. Aside from staying connected with loved ones around the world, I am acutely aware of the role that my website plays in that regard. Granted, five years from now new communication platforms may come about that will render the Internet obsolete. But until then, I'm going to make the most of what I have before me.
Does this website inspire you at all? Does it make you think? Does it make you laugh at least once, or affect you in any way? I certainly hope that it does, and I'd like to think that I can influence even more people through it, even after I am gone.